An Experience Worth Sharing

The weirdest thing ever happened to me. I don't know what to call it so I call it weird but I am very much pleased to have this experience. Alhamdulillah, praise to the Almighty.
This is rather a serious entry. I hope you guys would keep your mind free and read with leisure and if there's anything good in it, I hope you guys could accept it and if there are a few things you'd find inappropriate please analyse first, then leave a comment. So that I would also be informed of my mistakes. =)
I slept early around after Isyak prayers. Then I woke up around 1 am. I had a dream. It's about a friend but I would not discuss the details here but I would love to share it with you if you happen to see me then I will explain everything. But, the conclusion of that dream is this, I need to prepare myself if tomorrow or even the second as I post this will my life be taken away. Astaghfirullahal'azim. Let us pray hard and work hard - as in perform everything that Allah has ordered us to and avoid and leave those forbidden ones, for our sins to be forgiven. InsyaAllah.

Then, as I was awake, I can't believe what I see. Have you ever had any hints that your do'a is being granted by Allah? Alhamdulillah. Truly, I've been praying hard for this to happen. Ok here it is. There's this girl - I don't think I should me mentioning names, she has everything that a man would have imagined of a dream wife. She has the mature sense in her, she runs her own business, she can cook - not just the simple dishes that you can learn easily but those menus that only mums, grannys and experienced chefs know how to cook and traditional dishes included, she is amazing with kids, she knows how to treat them well, she's the family type of person, born and raised in a happy well-rounded family, she performs her solat, she has a good sense of humour, she dresses decently all the time, very outgoing and loud, and yeah she is very beautiful.

I hope I have described her very well indeed but to know her better you just have to be friends with her. She's very nice. Now, for the serious bit. She is indeed all that but she lacks of one thing. The covering of her aurat. Noticed I wrote "she dressed decently all the time"? I admitted that because she knows that she shouldn't be wearing those tiny dresses or shirts or whatever-girls-call-it shirt that exposes the skin and she DOESN'T wear those. Which is good. Of all the times I spent with her and also her family or friends, she had always put on those very decent clothing. But she didn't wear tudung or shawls or pashminas or najwalatif's tudung or any-other-types of tudung. Do not get stressed out by reading this. It's not that she doesn't wear tudung or doesn't know how to, she had worn them during her secondary years (I saw one of her secondary years pictures and she looked very nice in tudung) and she had worn them occasionally. I'm not saying that it is a bad thing entirely not wearing tudung. But my say doesn't count in this matter. It's Allah's decision to make whether it's good or not. And Wallahua'lam, only Allah The Almighty knows it. Because if she has intentions on wearing tudung later on then it is considered as a good thing but not wearing it now is prohibited by Allah. It's Allah's rights to decide her deeds and intentions. So please do not judge people easily yeah my friends.

Continuing to my story, as I woke up in the middle of the night, I saw a picture, one which made my heart felt so warm it feels like a joyful moment. I saw her most recent picture in tudung, a pashmina to be exact. Alhamdulillah. I dropped down to my knees saying grace to Allah saying Alhamdulillah over and over again. Tears started rolling down my cheeks. Bertambahlah kesempurnaan imannya dan juga bertambahlah seri wajahnya. It's hard to describe the feeling. Relating to the issue of which I posted this is that I do not know for how long she will wear tudung and I do not know if it's only for business purposes. But what I do know is that Allah has given me a hint that my prayers were answered. And I will always pray for your success and your happiness in the world and the Hereafter. I am not a perfect Muslim and Mu'min myself. I may not know how to advise her or tell her directly to her face on this matter. That is why I write this. A gentle reminder and a gentle praise to her - if she reads this, and also to my dear friends out there. If you happen to know her do let her know that she looks very beautiful with tudung on. She does, doesn't she? Looking and knowing her like that warms the heart. "Truthfully, awak. Saya tak tipu." Let us all work on being a better Muslim and a better Mu'min. InsyaAllah. Amiiiin..

And now I am more jealous of her future husband.
"Sometimes love means taking a step back. If u care about somebody, u should want them to be happy even if u end up being left out "- TedMosby

alifazizi ; 12/12/2011 ; 2.37 am

30 Nov 2011

Muehehe! LOL
30th November each year marks a very special day. Yup you guessed it right! My Birthday yaw! I rarely ever celebrate my own birthday. So, the fact that my lovely friends asked me out for dinner makes my heart go WEEEE!!! (like a baby) and it brought tears. Joyful tears though. They brought me to an Arab restaurant called Sahara Tent in Shah Alam. Woahhh! Cool place weyy. Here are some pictures of the lovely friends.

Jodin and Hakeem

 Haselyn and Aisyah

The Loveliest Friends!

 

Yes Hakeem, LOVE your expression. Haha. Later on we went to Barra in SS17. OMG! We talked about those funny childhood memories.Haha I was blushing all over coz they talked about most of my embarrassing moments in primary school. Hahaha. I love you guys so much wey! Let me tell you this, I don't mind not having a girlfriend right now but if I don't have you guys, I'll shoot myself right through my head. Hehe. I was a bit disappointed coz during the day I was not well and had to cancel a plan. But these fellas really know how to cheer me up. All and all, it was an amazing birthday. Thank you and I love you guys! =)

Time To Catch Up

Alright now, these few events have passed for quite some time. I do not own a BB or Iphone or Android phones or any PC tablets and that is why I can't give any updates or simply tweet about them straight away. Haha. Oh here's my twitter details for those who read and for those who care. LOL. http://twitter.com/AlifAziziAzmi

Ok first up, the engagement day of my cousin Mr. Shahril Fauzi with his partner or now fiancee Ms. Wan Noor Miza. It was at Kota Damansara and I was the photographer hired by the family. Hehe. But I didnt snapped these pictures below. My shots are in another album but I can't find it though.

My Family (but not all actually)

The Gents ( Those three on the right are next ) Hehe

The Engaged Couple

And lastly, ME! Haha

Hehe, yeah I was busy snapping pics that day. Ok next up, the thunderstorm that hit USJ on 13 November 2011 around 2-4. I was on my way home with my sessionist to practice at my place. Was caught in traffic for more than an hour coz most of the roads are blocked. These pictures are taken from my cousin's collections Mr Shahril Fauzi himself.

 Scary right.. Haha.. Last one is Khayra's 3rd Birthday Party.. The food was awesome! We watched football and had fun.. The pictures are also taken by Mr Shahril Fauzi..

She didnt know how to blow candles so she kinda spit it out. Haha but it didnt hit the cake though. =P

With Uncle Iwan

Yeah, so that's it. Haha I know it's kinda long. But yeah if it's not for you guys to read, it's for me to like just browse through my blog and think of the happy moments that came along the way. I am glad that I am blessed with a happy family. Alhamdulillah. Can't wait to have my own. LOL. =)

Prince Charming... NOT!!

I am really not sure what I've done wrong. I really do not have a single clue. I've admitted that I did something wrong. You say I didn't. I've asked for a chance to explain. You say better not coz you don't want things to be awkward. I've asked you out just to check if things were okay between us. You rejected. I've texted, I've called you while you were asleep just to say that I miss you, I really do. Seriously, I've tried. I did and I still am. Maybe not my best but I've really tried to make things work between us. Or is it that you don't wanna let me try? Is it that I am just a nuisance to you now? If I am then tell me. Just tell me right in my face and give me an explanation. I need to know what I've done wrong or what I didn't do. I may not be the prince charming you've always wished for but this ugly frog has a heart too. Just don't leave it hanging please.

Have a few events to be attended tomorrow but I'm not sure if I can go to all of em.
First there's this OctTwtFest happening at Shah Alam.
OctTwtFest

Then there's this Vintage Festival in KL
Vintage Fest

Next there's this Concert Showcase of Talents for the Malaysia Music Festival at Segi Kota Damansara. It's like an audition for the selected few but I'm not participating, I just wanna watch coz my friend is performing.
Malaysia Music Fest

And again not a single plan with her. She's busy with her own stuff I guess. It's ok la kot. Give her some space for herself. Hopefully, time will heal. Fingers crossed.

Let's just have some fun on Saturday yaww.. =) 

Honestly

I know I shouldn't have done what I've did. And now, I am stuck here. Coz I do not know how you feel about me. And I don't know how to react coz if I over reacted, I'm afraid you'll feel awkward, and if I act like I dont care, I'm scared that you'd think that I don't give a damn about it. But I do care. I seriously do. I know, you're trying to move on from your previous love. I know, but do u know why I have never ask you about it? Coz I am doing so myself. And I know if you wanna share things with me, you will just say it. I do not wish to interfere with your past life if you wouldn't want to let me in because I am concentrating on the present and am busy thinking about the future. Moving on is a very complicated process if you think about it too much. It's easier to be said than done. I know, it has been a year now since my previous girlfriend left me for another guy and sometimes I still feel very jealous of their relationship. I know I'm not that perfect to be compared with the new guy, that is why I try to be strong dealing with the breakup to prove to everyone especially her that I can handle things on my own. And the fact that I did try to compare myself with the new guy is ridiculous. I know it now. Coz I am actually better and I have to believe this. Then you came along. It took me awhile to really decide if I would want to try to be friends with you. Coz I'm scared that I could be heartbroken again. But things went well, I feel very comfortable with you around. I know it's too early to rush into things and that is why I decided to take it easy. To give you time and space for you to move on. To give you my 100% attention and company whenever I'm available to help you move on. Honestly, I have feelings for you and I want to let it grow. I've decided to step back a little. Things are harder for you now, I know. With the studying and the assignments and your commitment to your business. I just wish that I could have just a little bit of part of a little space in your mind and stay there. And when the time is right, I hope I could make things right again and will still be able to have you around. If you're reading this, please take care and as always, stay beautiful. =) 

=)

Though I haven't let my true feelings show,
As so much I want it to build and grow,
And each time I look at you, I'm certain,
That only to you, my heart will open.