Thanks Doe

Baru-baru ni memang banyank betul cabaran hidup yang perlu aku lalui. Biasalah, nama pun hidup, mesti ada cabaran. Itulah kata-kata cliche yang aku asyik dengar dari mulut rakan-rakan. Tapi bukan itu kisahnya dalam post ni. Kisahnya pasal seseorang yang aku dah anggap mcm family aku sendiri. Azril Noor Azali atau nama comelnya dari kecik Jajo. Aku tak tau kalau kau baca ke tak post ni Jajo tapi aku nak cakap something. Aku nak cakap THANKS DOE!

Aku tak tipu wey. Seriously thanks. Dari dulu lagi, time aku serabut je, aku mesti nak tahu pasal korang. Pasal Jodin, Fahmi and pasal kau. Bukan maksudnya time aku susah je aku carik korang. Sebab semua benda yang korang tulis, yang korang share dengan aku, semuanya memberi semangat kat aku. Dari dulu sampai sekarang. Korang lah tempat aku dapat inspiration. Malam tadi aku sangat tidak boleh tidur and aku decide aku nk baca blog kau. Yup, air mata berlinang sikit bila baca pasal Jodin. Dan aku rasa sangat2 motivated wey. Sumpah, sedalam-dalam hati aku nak mengaku, aku anggap korang mcm family aku. Bnd ni dengar mcm biasa je tapi tak wey. Aku hanya akan cakap/tulis benda yang aku betul2 maksudkan.

Kenapa aku serabut? Apa masalah aku? Nanti aku kisahkan sebab aku nak semua benda settle dulu baru aku share. Kedengaran azan subuh yang sangat menusuk kalbu. Thanks for reading.

dalam gelap AKU bercanda

Dalam kegelapan aku bercanda,
Bersama siapa? Soalan yang masih ku tanya,
Persoalannya, kenapa?
Kenapa dalam kegelapan, kenapa masih bercanda, kenapa berseorangan?

Ramai kata cinta itu buta, kerana itu aku cuba bercanda dalam kegelapan.
Ramai kata cinta itu serius, kerana itu aku bercanda.
Ramai kata cinta itu milik dua hati. kerana itu aku cuba bicara berseorangan.

Aku bukan romantis, aku bukan jiwang, aku cuba memahami hidup
Mengisahkan apa yang terlintas di fikiran
Menulis segala apa isi dan rintihan hati.

Kerana aku tahu, tidak ramai yang berani mengaku cinta,
Ini bukan kisah melayan perasaan atau emosi,
Ini hanya hati yang perlu diterjemah menjadi kata-kata.

Hidup dan Cinta itu ujian.
Hiduplah dengan kasih sayang dan Cintalah dengan keikhlasan.

Afgan Syah Reza!

Ok, sebenarnya Afgan Syah Reza @ Afgan memang idola saya sejak dulu lagi...

Tapi baru sekarang nak tulis post pasal dia sebab....hurmm sebab.....errrr ade la...  u_u

Hahaha xde mase kot nk tulis before this...

Cuba dengar dia nyanyi "My All" ni... Superb!!

Oh yeah, and I will be re-quoting my tweets on this blog for no obvious reasons...

Just for the fun of reading it again I guess...Hahaha..

1. Was just thinking of your smile and truly, it made me smile... =)   14/8/2011
2. Sometimes the heart wants what it wants, but can only gets what it gets...My heart wants you, but can it get you?      21/7/2011
3. Aku rindukan dia yang tidak merindui. Perlukah? -A.M.-     12/7/2011
   

Banyak Nak Cerita tapi.....

Woahhhh, excited ni! Lame jugak tak tulis blog ni..Haa mungkin sekarang dah ada mase so boleh la kot menulis..Nampak sangat takde benda lain nk buat en...hehe...

Cerita hidup, soal perasaan dan kisah hati..

I admit, I have a lot of things going on right now but still I decided to blog..

Updates on Facebook can only be written once in a while..

Tweets can be very annoying because they bug other peeps' timeline..

Not very good in Tumblr or Formspring..

So, to tell a very long story, I have to write it here...Kaaannn?

Firstly, results are a bit disappointing..But I've tried my best..Really..

I've emailed a few Unis for their consideration and Alhamdulillah, Praise to Allah, some of the replies makes me happy..For a moment there, I felt like I am actually worthy...

A few Unis have secured a place for me..Thank you so much!!

I am now trying my best to do anything possible to make it through..

I'm hoping for your prayers and support dear friends.. =)

Next, I do not know how to say this but I am pretty much happy now..

Although, it is not certain that it would last but at the moment, it stays..

Kalau la kau orang boleh tengok aku en, aku senyum lebar ni!!

I do not wish to elaborate because I am a bit nervous about it..Hahaha...

More on that later...With hope that it would last la this time...

PS: Cause no matter what I do, my heart is filled with you... =)

 -Alif Azizi, 16.8.11-

Ayah

I don't know why I'm so gloomy today...
Maybe coz I've been thinking a lot lately...
Of how life would be if my dad is still around...
Yes, Ayah, I miss you...
This is a rather personal issue, but I decided to share. Not that I want your sympathy or I purposely post this so that people would feel sorry for me, No! I want you guys to appreciate the people around you and start thinking on how to share the love with others...
Well, at least that's what I've been doing...Sharing the love...
To be honest, I care about my family and friends, and I would do anything even if it'll be difficult for me, nonetheless, I'll do it. And maybe that's why some people can just take advantage of my sincerity and play a fool with it. Even then, I wouldn't mind if you do that.
One day, I was at the mosque, and in front of me was a little boy performing solat with his dad. It is the cutest thing ever. The way the father controlled the boy to mind his manners in the mosque, the way the kid kissed his father after finished praying, the way they hold hands on their way out, and the sparkle in the boy's eyes when he looked at his father. I never had all that. And that was when I stayed for a while praying to Allah for my father and telling the Almighty on how I miss my father. The father that didn't have the chance to see me grew up in being the person I am now. I was so different from you guys out there. And yes, back in the days I was so manja and I always wanted to be with my mum. Because I can't afford losing another parent. I miss my father. All I have is a picture of him holding my elder brother in his arms. And now, I've lost the photo. I can't imagine being my younger brother to be born without a father. He was in my mum's womb when my father passed on. And that's why I love him so much. I can't recall any memories with my father. Not even a second of it. I truly can't coz I was just a one-year old baby. Yes, maybe some of you out there have stories that are worse than mine. I'm sorry for you. I'm just sharing mine. And yes, I miss my father so much. And I feel so bad right now, because I didn't visit his grave during Hari Raya last year.

Ayah, 

Alip sorry sangat tak datang tengok ayah. Tapi Alip selalu doakan ayah tau. Alip sedekah Al-fatihah untuk ayah, alip bace Yaasin untuk ayah, alip kadang-kadang menangis bila teringat kat ayah.

Sebab alip rindu. Alip pun nak macam orang lain. Boleh jalan-jalan dengan ayah diorang, boleh peluk ayah diorang. Alip nak sangat baring on your lap kat sofa sambil tengok TV.

Alip x pernah dapat pun semua tu. Tapi alip xsalahkan siape-siape pun. Takdir Allah kan. Alip terima. 

Cume Alip nak sangat ayah tengok-tengokkan family kite ni ok? 

I love you ayah, I wish you could hear me say this...

Don't know why I'm so emotional today. I'm just sharing with you guys.

Kesabaran Dicabar Tahap Maksima

Adoyyyy tolong la jangan pergi kedai foto kat USJ tu..
Ni dah masuk film yg ketiga diorg rosakkan....mmg x professional langsung!!!
Nasib baik aku tak teraburkan kedai kau....Hishhh!
Tolong la wey...
Aku bangun pagi2 pukul 4.30 wey, pergi Broga Hill kat Semenyih tu nk amik gmbr cantik2...Aku semangat gile bwk Diana pergi sane dgn kwn2 aku....kau pulak rosakkan film aku en...
Haduihhh...Lepas satu, satu problem datang....
Dah la cermin mata aku pecah!!! Ni dah kali ketiga pecah ni.....
Pakai contacts smpi malam nk tidur baru bukak...memang nak buta dah aku ni en....
Ah! Takde maknenye aku nk post bende ni dalam English...Kalau nak maki kau tu, maki jugak!!! Bebal!!!

Haihhh...memang tak a, aku nk pegi kedai kau lagi....Urghhhhh serabut tau x....
Sorry la kalau aku ade maki2 mencarut kat kau tadi wahai owner kedai...tapi kau dah melampau tau x? Aku dulu boleh la sabar, sebab ade org nk tenangkan aku nanti...Sekarang ni, dah xde...mmg nasib kau a kena maki ngan aku tadi en.....Eiiiiii, jangan sampai kaki hinggap kat muka.....SABAR, SABAR........hisssshhhhh

To readers yang tak paham kenape aku marah sgt....ikut suka korang la...Nak kate benda ni benda kecik ke ape ke en...Lantak korang sebab korang tak tau so jangan nak pandai-pandai kate aku ni gedik sebab bnd kecik pun nk kecoh kt blog....Sekarang ni aku tengah panas, baik aku gi mandi, main gitar, nyanyi-nyanyi and malam karang baik aku study!!! Kalau korang nak rase aku nye baran, ha cube la cari pasal skang.....
Dah, BYE!

The One and Only

THIS POST IS SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO A FRIEND I'LL NEVER REGRET KNOWING...THE ONE AND ONLY CAPTAIN MUHAMMAD HAFIZUDDIN NOOR AZALI @ JODIN

As what I've posted on his facebook, I'll reblog it here =)

Aku boleh carik duit berjuta-juta,
Aku boleh dapat kawan beribu-ribu,
.Aku boleh jatuh cinta beratus-ratus kali,
Dan mungkin disakiti juga berpuluh-puluh kali,
Aku ade kuota untuk kahwin 4...
TAPI AKU HANYA ADE SATU JODIN DALAM HIDUP AKU.... =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JODIN...

A VERY SPECIAL DATE EVERY YEAR, 17th JANUARY... 

Din, tadi kan aku rindu kau sangat-sangat...So, aku tengok blog kau..Baru aku perasan, layout blog kite same doe!! Kalau kau nak aku tukar, nnt aku tukar...Mane boleh tiru kau en...Hahaha....Tapi aku nak biar je dulu, sebab aku rindu kau sgt...Bile aku tengok blog aku, aku ingat kau, bile aku tengok blog kau lagi la aku teringat kat kau....Sayang kau sangat2...Take care~~

To all the readers, remember that even how bad you've fallen into love or out of it, there will be a friend who will always catch u and bring u up again...So don't worry if you don't have any so called Special Someone or Lover in your life, coz no matter what, that friend who have your back will always be more special than anyone else...(except your family of course)...Then again, I consider Jodin as a family member too =)

People say that, you'll tend to really appreciate someone or something ONLY when he/she/it is totally out of your life or when he's/she's/it's gone... But when you lose a friend like this, you should consider killing yourself...I will never ever try to even think of losing you Jodin...( A phrase that you can always tell a friend and NOT ONLY YOUR LOVER )